Today's Warm and Fuzzy Thought

Moving sucks.

Well it has taken a couple of days but Valium and I are finally settled into our new apartment. Mind you, that does not mean that all the boxes are unpacked, it only means that it doesn't take us 20 minutes to find underwear in the morning. So far, we are quite happy with our new home and I think we could be quite happy here. Our course load has lessened by one class which should help us out with time and homework.

Over the weekend, my dad helped my grandmother move out of her home that she shares with my grandfather and move into an assisted living type apartment. I didn't know this was happening and I wish that I could have been there to help. I always remember my grandmother from my youth when she was a creative beacon in my life. Then some things changed and she began to grow tired, and her art and creativity began to wither and fade. She has spent her entire life taking care of other people. In her youth it was her brothers and sisters, once married her husband and children, and in some cases, her children's children. She has always been someone who has put other people's needs before her own and now I hope that she will take the time in her last years and take care of herself. I truly hope that she once again uses her time to create beautiful art.

I draw inspiration from my family but not by the things they have accomplished but by the things they have not. When my mom died, she left so many things undone. My uncle is a wonderful painter and yet never touches the brush. My grandmother who always wanted to study science and never did. I see their regrets and unfulfilled dreams and I realize that I still have an opportunity to not follow in their footsteps. Instead, I will do the things I always wanted to do.